felix-leg

Today is the day we gather with our families and share presents :) So, I wish you very merry Xmas, with a hope the Covid wouldn't break your celebration!

Exactly a week ago something strange happened to me. I woke away and felt absolutely no emotions whatsoever. For then I thought it's normal and temporary. But now a week after that nothing has been changed. It's very strange and hard to describe: it's like if you are floating on the "ocean of nothingness", nothing makes you angry, sad, disgusted etc. At first sight it may sounds wonderful, and for a few days it was like that for me: I finally started to working on a (non-graphical) project that I had constantly put off until the next day. But when it started to show some success I discovered that no emotions means you also doesn't feel happy of that success. Day after day my life become more and more bland, without colors. Working with any picture in this state is completely off the possibilities: if you can't put any feelings into your picture, what is it worth? I described what I wrote above on some Discord server I'm in, and someone suggested it may be because of an advanced

On Wednesday this week I have got a meeting with my boss, and he told me he won't extend the employment contract with me. This means for me I'm back to the unemployed world. 'Nuff said :cry: